I want to be Zum’s friend. I am building up my own self-confidence with Zum again so I can be solid when he decides that being my friend is OK with him.
I have always revered the Arabian horse. As my grandmother bred and raised Arabian horses in Colorado, I have been around and ridden Arabian horses since I can remember. I value their extraordinary physical beauty and magnificent spirit. Zum is my daily dose of visual vitamins. He is royalty and he deserves to be treated like a prince. When he is treated less than this, he rebels and resists. I understand Zum.
I know that bucking is a horse’s response to fear or pain. Yelling or hitting a horse after he bucks only reinforces the pain that caused the bucking. I know that Zum’s bucking is very dangerous to me and he can and has hurt me seriously. I could let someone else ride Zum but I have to find a natural horseman who understands that I don’t want Zum to be kicked, whipped or punished. I have watched conventional trainers do this to Zum in the past and this only makes Zum angry and rebellious. Where will I find a natural horseman who could ride Zum?
After I put the saddle on, Zum stands perfectly still as I tighten the cinch. I don’t know whether or not I should get back up on Zum. My right arm is still very weak. Would I be able to handle riding Zum after he hasn’t been ridden for three months? I admit that after he bucked me off, I am afraid that he will buck me off again. I want to get over my fear. How can I do this safely?
My hand therapist told me yesterday that if I didn’t have the arm surgery to install two long metal plates and screws into my right arm, that I could have lost my right hand. This is really alarming to me. I have been training myself to wait for my hand to get stronger all summer. Just as I am training myself to wait until I can finally get the saddle back on Zum. I am so grateful to be able to finally carry the saddle in both hands.