I am heart-broken that I cannot ride Zum as he recovers from the trauma of the ranch saddle accident. I can lunge him in the round pen. I can teach him tricks. Humans are mortal and fragile but I want to carry my past into the future. I want to live as I have never lived and look forward with hope. I want to hope that Zum and I can ride again on the trails as this is what we both love to do together.